Smoldering Embers

Smoldering Embers
by Angela Lucius 2012


I loved you the first time I saw you
Your soul I had long ago known
Perhaps in another lifetime,
Perhaps from a dream or a poem.


From where?  it did not really matter,
All I knew, was that you had been found
And I dropped everything I was living
With a sigh, in a heap on the ground


And love was easy and happy
And we danced and we laughed in our glee.
Passions burned hot like a wild fire
And we nearly burned down all the trees.


Now the years and the time have since passed us
And farther and farther apart
We let our paths be divided
Burning up all the love in our hearts


Now I look in your eyes every evening
And I wonder just who you could be
For now in this dim light so lonely
You seem like a stranger to me.


Your voice is a haunting familiar
And your smile, though rarely I see
Results in a memory so faded
Like a ghost ship that sails foggy seas


And the pain in my heart is so heavy
It burns and it cuts til I bleed
My soul dying slow from starvation
And the lack of warmth that it needs


Across the fence grasses are growing
And greener and greener they sprout
And I contemplate the temptation
To jump over and truly find out


But I'm chained to a post by the ankle
With a shackle that cuts as it binds
To a lost love that long ago faded
Yet its embers still smoke in my mind.


Release me and let my heart fly now
I'm withering slow on this vine
If we are no longer in love dear
At least give me the freedom to find.


Enough life left to keep living
Enough fresh air, for to breathe
For when the fire burns down to ashes
A fresh start is sometimes what we need.


I loved you the first time I saw you
Now it only brings tears to my eyes
And though painful it is to say goodbye
We must all move on when love dies.

Truth and Consequences

Truth and Consequences
by Angela Lucius 2012


I lay here in darkness and think of your face,
Lost time now so distant, your sweet kiss I still taste.
Once we were young lovers with wishes and dreams,
Torn from each others arms with curses and screams.


Dragged away in confusion, threatened with lies.
Fear placed in our minds, tears branded our eyes.
Convinced it was wrong, that we weren't meant to be
Though we knew in our hearts, still no one could see.


Yet time after time, our life paths have since crossed.
And we feel it each time, that one hope, never lost.
And over and over we've buried the truth,
Dying to self and the passions of youth.


We moved on in silence, ignoring our dreams,
Exploring new paths, chasing wishes down streams.
Always searching for love in the arms of another,
To do what seemed right, the truth we would smother.


Our life's obligations always stepping in,
Denying love's flame like a dark dirty sin.
We blamed it on fate and how life is unfair.
Our love always forbidden, a curse we both share.


Our lives always entrusted to somebody else,
Except for one truth we hold secret to self.
Other love never blossoms or blooms very long.
Choked out by the secrets we whisper in poems.


Now we lie in our beds each night in the dark,
We weep silent tears from our sad longing hearts.
Remembering promises made long ago.
That our love was forever and we'd never let go.


Still here we are, our love we deny
And we worry that truth will reflect in our eyes.
Though love is a beautiful, passionate thing,
Merciless heartbreak and pain with it brings.


For the break of the curse lies in using truth's knife
The heart of another must first be sacrificed.
And no matter the choice or the path that we take
First we must decide, which heart we will break.


How does someone choose, when the last chance they see,
Means they must shed the blood of a heart to be free?
What is right? What is wrong? Which choice is the worst,
Betray trust with a truth, or live lies with a curse?